In.This.Life.

5 Best Things of My 2011

2012-01-08T02:41:00.000-08:00

5 Best Things of My 2011:-

1-I've got my own car!

2-Got a new work, new working environment!

3-Resume paying my student's loan~

4-?

5-?

Well, unfortunately, 2011 brings a lot of sadness to me. I thought I can at least give 5 best things of my 2011, guess I was wrong. I can only figure out 3. Hope 2012 will give me more joy and happiness in life. Amin~

The last month of 2011

2011-12-03T22:49:00.000-08:00

It is now December
the last month of 2011
A lot of things has happened
A lot of things that make you stronger, wiser, and grateful

May 2012 brings you the joy and happiness
and if 2012
brings you sorrow and sadness more than joy and happiness,
just remember
there's gotta be rainbows at the end of every rainy days

Be happy and good :)

But, yet I still...

2011-11-16T06:35:00.000-08:00

"I do luv u but i luv my future more...+ my family.... Sorry u not in the picture."

That was the meanest words that I ever got! Seriously, what did he thinks I am? He came in to my life, and now, all that he wanted is to walk away?

I felt so hurt. I cried all night.

But now, all I feel is nothing. Numb. Empty. But, actually I secretly do feel a bit happy.

And, do you want to know why?

It is because, I get to prevent my heart to get hurt again. At least, for the present. I don't know what will happen in future. Nobody knows. What I do know now, I only want to be happy. That's all.

May he be happy with whatever decision he made.

But, yet I still...

I secretly wish...

Oh I should stop thinking about all of this now. Now. Got to go. Away~

Life

2011-11-03T08:06:00.000-07:00

My life is just okay. I have a temporary work at the moment. Just "okay" relationship with him. Not so busy work life, just "okay". I try not to think the negative ones, just try to think positive. Yeah, my life is just okay at the moment. What else could I ever wish for anymore at this time anyway? I'm grateful for everything actually :)

99 Facts About Guys (seriously?)

2011-11-02T09:41:00.001-07:00

( A GUY WHO IS SERIOUSLY IN LOVE AND NOT JUST AN INFATUATION )

1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys hate flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.

5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!

14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what? Uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate nice boy!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. Its good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”

59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

P/S: Got this somewhere I can't recall.

Be friend with an EX?

2011-10-15T06:28:00.000-07:00

Okay, I admit that I still be friend with one of my exes. Just that one.

But, there still a but

I don't like him asking about my new partner, let alone making comparisons

I don't like him to ask me out anymore

I don't like to meet him at all, even if it is a coincidence...just like that day but I'm glad, I just saw him from a far and glad that I didn't make any moves to approach him

I don't like to listen to his so-called-talks anymore

Too many things that I used to like TOO MUCH before, but not anymore

I wish he can move on cause I already did that

I thought he has moving on cause he got that new gf but, eventually it does not seems that way

Cause he always contact me and talks about the places we went together, the things that we shared, the little things that I said that he still remember until now

Oh how I wish he can let all the memories between both of us go

Why did he has to ask me out anymore when the truth is, when we were still together, he doesn't even care to meet me?

Why?

"You used to be someone who was so damn important to me, but you did not appreciated me. Now that I already go, why do you want to come back?"

Seeking for YOU

2011-09-12T06:02:00.000-07:00

I seek for YOU
with my humble self
not only during my sorrow periods of life
but also during my happiness in life

I am afraid
too afraid actually
that I might change into somebody I hate to be
please don't let me be someone YOU too hate

Dear Lord
do guide me into the right path
into YOUR path
please let me be in the right direction
in YOUR direction

Nonetheless

2011-09-11T07:21:00.000-07:00

How I wish I don't miss you that much

How I wish I can erase everything you said

How I wish I can forget everything you did

How I wish everything can be as the way it used to be

Because

I care too much

I love too much

I trust too much

I hope too much

I'm afraid

I will fall and break and never can bounce back

So please

Don't say anything anymore

Just hang in there as long as you can

That's all I want you to do

Lessons

2011-09-06T10:26:00.000-07:00

Lessons that can be learned:

1) Do not fall for your co-worker. If it didn't turn out well, you will be devastated to meet that person every single day.

2) Do not put your trust 100% in someone especially the one you just know. You will be so heart broken that your trust has been broken by someone you trust so much.

3) Beware with backstabbers. Anyone can be a potential backstabber.

4) Do not share your personal story to someone who you are not so close. Too risky~

5) If your parents do not like your partner, just let him/ her go.

6) If you have done something wrong, admit it and say sorry.

7) Come clean-the best solutions to relationship problems.

8) Do not love someone TOO MUCH. You will find it is so hard to recover. Only time will heals.

9) Do not give up too soon if you never ever try.

10) Let go if that is the only thing left can do.

Freedom to choose

2011-09-04T22:12:00.001-07:00

Everyone has their own recipe to cook their raw dreams to become the real menu of success . Bear in mind that other people poison can be somebody else favourite food,vice versa. My not so secret recipe always by the combination of three main ingredients; calm, brave, and positive energy .

I think i am calm enough, but not brave enough. Positive energy is on and off along the way. So this makes me 1.5 per 3 up to my potential. Or 50 percent. In other word, i am average based on my own intrepretation.

In realization of that, i will carefully prepare the ingredient for my next to-be-fair-to-my-potential project. Believe or not Im actually in the process of baking a new cake of dreams. I got my calm, i got my brave, i got my positive energy, and for the newest addition..i got my freedom to choose!

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If sorry is not in your dictionary,pls use mine.

2011-08-28T02:33:00.001-07:00

Maaf Zahir Batin

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#240811 Wordlove Wednesday

2011-08-23T19:17:00.000-07:00

Love yourself first,
Because you can't give something
you dont already have.

Hey Doctor!

2011-08-22T20:03:00.000-07:00

Hey Doctor!
I need a surgery,
I need a surgery,I need a surgery,
I need a surgery,
I need a surgery,I need a heart surgery.

Coz my heart is broken now,
Coz my heart has no love anymore,
it cannot function again..

Hey doctor!
if I dont have love,
I have the worst kind of heart trouble in the world.
So..do you wanna look at my heart?

Regret?

2011-08-22T05:59:00.000-07:00

This is one of the question that one of my friend asked me today:

"Are you regretting leaving Mr F for Mr Z just to be dumped by Mr Z in the end?"

1. I left Mr F not for Mr Z. I've been thinking about leaving Mr F long before I knew Mr Z. I've no regrets making this decision. But, we still friends.

2. Mr Z have been there during my bad days, my sick days & also my happy days. I have no regrets knowing him. And, we still friends even though it is hard for both of us.

So, to answer that question, I'll say no. Not at all. I don't regret.

What will happen in the future? Only HE knows. Only HE knows best. I'm just trying to live my life. That's all.

Crazy

2011-08-21T14:19:00.001-07:00

People saying that crazy people will never admit they are actually crazy.

This makes me think that..am i crazy? The answer will absolutely big NO.

Read again the first sentence.

Ok im crazy. Hopefully it is a good news for today. 22.8.2011

Stop!

2011-08-20T22:17:00.000-07:00

Stop asking questions

that even I myself don't know the answer

Stop messing with my life

and try to arrange everything for me

Stop pushing me

to do things that I don't even want to think, and what more, do

Just stop for a while

Didn't you realize that I already feel down with my life already?

Didn't you realize that all you do is making my life miserable?

Didn't you realize all I want you to do is

give me some time

to think about my future

give me some space

to arrange back my life

give me some strength

so that I can wake up next morning and feel that I'm at least is important

Don't

2011-08-20T21:58:00.000-07:00

Don't say you don't love me anymore

just because you want some space

Don't shut me out

just because you don't want me to know your problems

Don't think that when I know your problems

I will judge you just like that

Don't think

that there is someone better out there for me than you (I know we never know the future but please don't say that. It hurts me more)

Don't be afraid of the future

nobody really knows the future, we only can try our very best

Don't give up

because you can't see the solutions to all problems at this moment

Just

Be yourself

Just

Hang in there

Just remember

Whatever it is, you still can count on me like 1 2 3

I will try my very best

and be there

Afraid

2011-08-19T20:42:00.000-07:00

In this life,
If i am AFRAID to lose anything i have,
REFUSE to play the risk i need,
RUN from the challenge in front,

Then..at some point in my life..sooner or later i will realize that i am Afraid of my own life, Refuse to live my life..and eventually Run to nothingness..

Oh lord..i am afraid!

My Dream Job

2011-08-18T10:10:00.000-07:00

Getting paid to sleep..
That's my dream job.

Good night angels!

Welcome Ramadhan!

2011-07-31T06:30:00.001-07:00

Welcome Ramadhan

and Happy Fasting to all Muslims all over the world =)

Oh My Gosh!

2011-07-03T06:57:00.000-07:00

I have tried my very best to reach your expectations,
but it seems like in any how, in anyway,
everything I do does not seems to please you,
therefore, I rest my case!

This time,
it will be a solid one,
there will be no looking forward, no turning back no more.

There you go

My notice of resignation!

May you'll find someone better than me

All the best to myself in looking for a new job!

No Title

2011-06-08T06:43:00.000-07:00

If you want me to let you go and set you free
I will let you go
so you will be free

The Present

2011-06-02T09:05:00.000-07:00

At time like this, I really really do miss him. A lot. He will always there to listen to my problems and we shared stories too. We fighted a lot too but he still respect me as his sister. May you rest in peace dear Brother.

I am happy with my life. Now. I will not let words let me down. Well, still trying actually cause words really can let me down. I will not let anyone hurt my heart anymore. Well, I am still trying to do this too. But, it seems so damn impossible.

Go work, return home. That is my life at the moment. Wish I have more time to chill down, to hang out, and more importantly, more time for ME.

May you all have a good day.

Stay with me

2011-03-24T06:47:00.000-07:00

I open my heart
Again
and I don't know for how many times now
and this time
I really really hope will be the last time

You
Yes you
Please don't leave
Do stay

Hold my hand
and don't ever try to let go
I'll do the same thing too

Decision-stay or let go!

2011-02-23T09:45:00.000-08:00

May this be a solid and wise decision

May this be a decision that I will never regret

May this decision for the good of all

May this decision, you can accept it with open heart

I choose to let go~

I have learned something

The lesson:

"No matter how hard you try to make a relationship works, if it does not meant to be, it will never will be"

and I learned it the hard way

Miss you 3 4 5 6

2011-02-21T10:01:00.000-08:00

Even though we meet nearly everyday, I still miss you

But, I won't admit that to you, sorry

Thank you so much for hanging in there for me, I really really do appreciate it!

Hope you will understand that I'm still in "move on" status

Let it be, let it be

As the time comes, you will see.

I'm sorry so sorry

2011-01-30T18:37:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry
I just could not take it anymore
You still the same
I thought you will change
but I was so wrong

Day by day the feeling has gone
All I feel is the pitiness
How can that be
When I was the one who make the first move?

I'm sorry that I hurt you
better I hurt you now than later when we get so involved
I'm sorry that I could not wait anymore
enough is enough
what else can I say?

I'm still here
if you need me as a friend
but that's all I can offer
not more than that
I'm sorry so sorry
Wish you know how I feel
Wish you read this anyway
Wish you know how terrible I feel
to let you go
finally
Sorry

2011

2011-01-02T22:01:00.000-08:00

I have lots of wish this year. And among all of it, I wish to lose weight! I think I have gained more weights than I thought I would.

When I was like 7 years old, I saw this one picture. It shows a lady that gains a lot of weight and then her body suddenly turn into balloons. At that time, I said to myself, "I don't want to be like that, turning into big balloon". Oh well, I was 7, childish mind haha

Seriously, I have to lose weight. Losing 5kg will be nice. People always said that if you gain weight, it shows that you are happy, nothing to worry, that's why you suddenly have that big appetite! I love to eat. I guess since I have my own money (starting last industrial training), I eat more. It will be harder for me to lose weight but, I can try. All the best to myself!

Hey Handsome, SMILE!

2010-12-28T09:20:00.000-08:00

The song that makes you automatically grin or smile =)

Farewell 2010, welcome 2011!

2010-12-26T23:03:00.000-08:00

2010

*My brother passed away*

*Being a Degree holder*

*2nd convocation in my life*

*3 months temporary job*

*Interview here and there*

*Finally got something to call "work"*

*Savings increase*

2011=?

Only Allah knows best. May 2011 makes all of us stronger than before

New life

2010-12-12T20:29:00.000-08:00

Today is my first day working after nearly 4 months of unemployed. If you were wondering what post I am, you can watch The Devil Wears Prada and you will get the idea.

Thank you Allah. I love you so much!

Life as it is

2010-11-17T19:37:00.000-08:00

As we grow older a day, a week, a month and a year older, we should always be grateful that we still alive. That we still have the opportunity to breath into this world. That it is our opportunity to become a better person and try to forgive and forget. That we still have the time to seek forgiveness to those who we done wrongs with we realize it or not. That we still have the time to try new things in our lives.

But, we should not forget those who have left us. Those who we really cared but, have left us forever. The memories will always remained, in our hearts and in our hearts. May they rest in peace.

I miss you brother. Even though everyone is home, but I still feel like something is missing. May you rest in peace. Al-fatihah.

10 ways to achieve happiness

2010-11-14T23:30:00.000-08:00

Just some other thoughts

2010-11-14T21:14:00.000-08:00

At this very moment, I'm thinking like I'm such a useless person. Just graduated from a Degree does not mean that our life is already secure. Even if you already did your best but still, it turned out to be the same ending-unemployed! Since I graduated last April (2010), I just had my temporary working experience for 3 months. And that's all. From my entire life, I just work for 3 months? So pathetic!

When people keep asking me the same damn questions, it makes me feel so damn frustrated. "Don't you want to further your studies?" "When are you going to get married?" "Where do you work now?". I don't want to further my studies. Not now. Seriously not now. I used to plan that I will doing my Master Degree at least after 5 years of workings and savings. But now, look at me? No work, not even a job at all! Not that I don't try harder to search for work. I did! Interview here and there. Placed my resume in every company I could think of. Asked friends if there are any job vacancy at their places. But still, it might not be my "rezeki".

The second question bothers me a lot. I don't know why. I don't think 24 is that old but yet, it is not that young either. I don't want to get married just because my parents want me too. I don't want to get married when I'm not financially, mentally and emotionally stable for marriage. I don't want to get married just because lots of my friends already engaged, married and some of them already deliver their first new born baby. It is just not the right time. So talking about marriage is just a big NO!

So maybe all I can do at this moment is to keep doing the same damn thing to get a job and at the same time, try to enjoy my life as it is now. Who knows maybe when I already get a job, I might not have plenty of time to do everything that I wanted anymore so please be grateful, Miss Ayda!

If you don't get a callback after 7 working days, just assume you don't get that job (Miss Ayda,2010)

31st October 2010

2010-10-30T09:13:00.000-07:00

Today is my father's birthday. His 55th birthday. And today is also my late brother's birthday. He was supposed to turn 20 today. Usually I will celebrate my birthday with them because my birthday is also in October. But, I did not get the chance to celebrate my birthday last year with them because I was still at my University having my final exams around. I don't mind. That was not the 1st time anyway. Is just that today will be the 1st day that only my father and I will celebrate birthday together in this month without my late brother. And for years to come too. May you rest in peace dear brother.

Luck or Effort?

2010-10-28T21:04:00.000-07:00

I wondered why do people always wish luck like everything you do is based on luck?

"Good luck on your final"

"Good luck for your interview"

Why don't you change luck and replace it with "All the best?"

"All the best on your final"

"All the best for your interview"

Okay, that is way BETTER!

P/S: ALL THE BEST IN EVERYTHING YOU DO =)

This is fragile

2010-10-06T06:19:00.000-07:00

A letter to Mr Ex Boyfriend

2010-10-05T00:23:00.000-07:00

Hi Mr. Do you still remember me? I bet you still do. Cause I definitely will never can forget someone like you. Never. You cheated on me, you lied to me. For how long? For 2 years! Aha. I was young and stupid back then. And after 2 years later, you came back and want to be my friend? Oh Mr. Shame on you, if you fool me once. Shame on me, if you fool me twice. I will never fall for anything you said anymore.

You asked for forgiveness, I said I already forgave you. And then you wondered why I don't want to be your friend anymore? Do you really want to know why??

I dumped you but I was the one who hurt. You got this new partner soon after we broke up and later you're engaged to her. So pathetic! I wondered who's the unlucky girl ha-ha But after 3months engaged, she left you. Now you know how I felt

You said you learned your lesson and I said, suits you well Mr! What goes around, comes around. I hope you will remember that everything you do to others, sooner or later will come back at you, so beware! And for me, I did learned my lesson. The hard way actually. Don't fall for someone who looks nice on the outside, cause it really can fools you and, do not trust anyone ha-ha

P/S: This entry was adapted from Jihan's post entitled "Day 13-A letter to someone who has hurt you recently". You inspired me Jihan. Mucho gracias :)

The Power of Laughter

2010-10-03T06:07:00.000-07:00

I really do love to laugh. It is also one of the way to handle stress besides those I have said before in my earlier post. So, when you feel really really down, find someone who can make you laugh out loud cause it really works! The other option is WATCH COMEDIES :p

I would like to share with you guys this link. A good one!

The Power of Laughter

Hey where are you?

2010-09-28T23:43:00.000-07:00

Hey where are you?
I need you
I want you
Oh
Work, job..whatever
Please come
Do come back

Ways to Handle Stress

2010-08-29T01:20:00.000-07:00

Each of us has our own way in handling stress. And for me, my way of handling stress is not always the same.

I might

too much until there is no room for food anymore in my stomach, but sometimes I could not even swallow any food because of stress. It depends...

One of my lecturer used to asked in class, "What do you guys do when you are under stress?"

And the first person to answer that question was ME!

My answer was

And she was quiet surprised. She said, how can someone even fall asleep when they are under stress? The answer is simple. You cry out loud until you fall asleep (I said to myself)

But sometimes, when I think too much I could not even fall asleep even a wink. Seriously! When I was doing my Diploma, I have some sleeping problem. I could not sleep during the day, and even at night! Maybe because of the weather or maybe I just think too much. Some of my friends suggest that I make myself busy during the day so then when at nights, I will feel tired and easy to fall asleep. But, it did not work! I would stay up late watching television (alone) until there was no show at all on the television (national television not Astro, okay). Then, I would go upstairs to my bed. But, still I could not sleep. I have tried everything. I did try counting the sheep you know. Now, I don't have that kind of problem anymore. It just cure just like that. Thanks to the break up I guess (thanks to you Mr Ex Boyfriend)

That lecturer of mine said that if she was under stress, she like to drive. She said, "I just don't get it why people tend to drive so slow. I drive pretty fast especially when I was under stress".

(is it this fast Madam?)

For girls, like me, I tend to share my problems with friends. They don't need to solve my problems, being a good listener is just okay. And sometimes, they can give us a clear picture of the whole problem, and give some suggestions on how to solve it. That is what FRIENDS are for, right?

You can also do this,

or this

to reduce your stress =)

I'm a Muslim

2010-08-13T22:14:00.000-07:00

Credited to Nayzak
http://nayzak.deviantart.com

No roads at all!

2010-08-13T06:29:00.000-07:00

A village at Holland that has no roads at all!

I wish to go there someday =)

Awards from Nisa!

2010-06-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

1. Thank and link the person that gave you the award

Never in million times to even think of receiving an award, but I've got 2 awards at one time? Haha Mucho gracias Nisa dear =)

2. Pass these awards to 15 blogger that you've recently discovered.

15? Can I state 5 instead of 15? Here goes..

3. Contact said blogs and let them know they've won the award

"You've won 2 awards!" -to Fndrocka, Najlaa, Amriey, Sis Mel and Miss Protagonist =p

4. State seven things about your blog.

It was created on 2009
A friend of mine suggested that I should have my own blog, so here it is!
Usually I just write just like that, I don't draft =)
A public blog
I wrote basically about life
I rarely update it
It doesn't have a lot of pictures in it

Aida

2010-06-15T05:09:00.000-07:00

I feel kinda shocked when I saw this.

Aida - The Timeless Love Story?

Funny. Ha-ha. Aida-a play?

The Story III

2010-06-11T05:33:00.000-07:00

"Wish you were here, I really need someone to talk to." She said to herself . The words just disappeared through the air. She went to his room, only to find nobody there. The rest of her family were busy doing their own stuffs. Some of them were out, some of them busy with computers, television and cell phone.

"You used to be here, listening to my problems. Now you're gone, to who should I talk to?"

"It still feels like you are still here. It was like you just go out for a while and will came back soon. Sometimes, when I call out for everyone for dinner, I feel like someone wasn't there. The table only have 6 chairs, usually we have to take an additional chair to fit everyone. But now, it feels so weird. Even if there are 6 persons having dinner together, I still feel like I want to take another chair, for you. For you, just for you"

"You were the only one who calls me Kakak. The rest calls me by the nicknames that they gave me. After you're gone, nobody calls me Kakak. Even if Ajiq calls me Kakak, it sounds different. So different that I feels like crying out loud. Kak, kak..kakak..you used to call me so many times before you continue talking what actually you want to talk about."

"I still remembered that you said you want to study far away from home. You told me, you want to know how it feels like to take the express bus. You said, it must be wonderful, being independent. I still remembered what I told you after that. I told you not to study far away from home, study near home is better, I can bring you along some day if you like."

"On your first day in college, I were there. You looked so happy, to be in college. I was happy too. You asked me to hug you before I left home. You said that it's been awhile since the last time I hug you. I was like, huh? Since when did I hug you? Later, you hug me. And I feel weird, even to think about that now, glad you did."

"But now, you're gone, and will never coming back. Did you know that I love you so much? Love you that it hurts me so deeply even to say your name. I wish you can hear me telling you that I care for you, love you, my brother."

"I really wish you knew. May you rest in peace, brother." She then falls asleep. Quietly. Alone in her room.

The Story II

2010-05-28T15:47:00.000-07:00

That was only one of the memory the sister had experienced with her brother as she leafing through the old photo album. There are lots more. So many that she just stared blank to the album.

"Hey Sis, can you play all the songs in your cell phone? Oops, correction..your boyfriend's cell phone. He-he".

"What-ever. His phone is my phone at the moment okay. There are not many songs here. But, he has lots of Malays songs. The "rock kapak" type of songs that you like. The one that he said that he doesn't really like. Okay, let me play some of it for you".

She played "Saling Merindu" by a band called Leon. The brother requested that the sister send the song to him via bluetooth. The next song that she played was "Apo Kono Eh Jang". It was a very old song sang by the Negeri Sembilan duo.

"Azim must love this song. He was from Negeri Sembilan. I want this song too. Hurry up Sis. Can't wait to play this song to Azim he-he".

"Be patient okay. Not like you can see him any minute from now".

He played both of this songs on and on and on. All day long. Like he was memorizing all the lyrics. They both were at their grandparents' house with the other family members.

"The vocalist of this band sang like a ballade. But it is actually a rock song".

"That's why it was called "rock kapak" song, okay".

**********************************************************************************

"I just returned from karaoke with Azim and Zakwan and two other friends. We went to bowling before that. My throat is kinda hurt at the moment, too many songs that we karaoke"

"Ha-ha who asked you to scream when you were supposed to sing?"

"Well, that is my way of singing. Plus, it is kinda of satisfaction. Suddenly, all the things that upset me went through the air. Ha-ha".

"You were out nearly every single day now. No other things to do huh? No assignments to do or no presentations to prepare?"

"I have finished all of it the moment I came home from class,okay? Everything has settled! I already score A for my tests remember?"

"Whatever. You better study hard and finish everything before your final come. If not, it will be too late at that moment".

"Okay Sis, I try harder. I will tell Azim and Zakwan that I will not hang out during the weekdays".

"Good!"

Something To Blog

2010-05-28T03:43:00.000-07:00

The Story

2010-05-05T06:58:00.000-07:00

Sis, I wish to open my own saloon. I'm not good in studying. You know my results right? Do you think our parents will approve that? His sister answered, I'm not so sure. I don't think so. You know them well enough I think.

They both were talking as usual in the sister bedroom. Since the sister was in a good mood, they talked everything, from the boy's latest exam results to his dreams. It was so perfect.

On the next day, the boy came home and looked for his sister. He called out his sister. Hey sis, you know what? I've got something to show you.

It was his new outfit. A white coat. Later, he was busy looking out for pants that suits the white coat.

"Here it is. A white pant to suits the white coat. Smart huh? I've got this from a bundle shop. Actually, I have another coat. The same design but, different colour. A black coat. Tadaaa cool huh?"

"Why are you buying all these stuffs anyway? Anything special?"

"Nah, it was for my class presentation. In that presentation, I am the CEO of the company. Great huh? A CEO have to wear smart outfits right, sis?".

"Hmm but don't you think that white pant do not suits with that white coat?. Wear a black pant instead..aha..that's way better"

Is it over?

2010-05-02T02:48:00.000-07:00

Finally, I am no longer a student
Will I miss those days of being a student?
I'm not so sure..maybe..or maybe I will further my studies and do Master in Research
Who knows right?
In the meantime, I will live my life the way it is at the moment =)

Miss you, Opie

2010-03-08T01:22:00.000-08:00

I still can hear your voice

I still remember talking to you that day

I still remember the things that you said

I still remember how you look like before the incident

I still remember how you look like after the incident

I still can feel the icy touch on my lip when it touches your forehead

I miss you so much it hurts when I know you will not coming back forever =(

Turn back time

2010-02-18T06:48:00.000-08:00

If I can turn back time,

I still choose to get through everything as it is

Even though

it sounds so good if...

I turn back time and study harder

so that I can get better results which will lead to better job opportunity,

I turn back time and choose not to be her close friend

so that we can still be friends now and never have those fights,

I turn back time and choose not to know him at all

so that I will not be hurt this much

but

If I can turn back time

and

I did not get through everything that I've been through,

I might not learn anything at all!

Be patient please!

2010-02-12T07:20:00.000-08:00

You can see this view everywhere especially at KTM! Stop pushing! Be patient please! Argh!

Things I wish I could say

2010-01-23T22:59:00.000-08:00

If only I can say all these straight on their faces

1) I hate you so much! Who you think you are? But thanks to you, I learned to not give trust to others that easily.

2) Can you just shut up? Don't you feel tired nagging all the time?

3) I have tried all the best I can but it seems to fail. What else can I do? Why can't you understand? Why do you have to do the comparisons anyway??

4) I'm damn tired. Plus, I just arrived home. Can you keep quiet for a while? Please. 5 minutes can do.

5) Stop asking all these questions that I don't even have the answers.

6) There are things on my mind that I don't want to tell you. But it keeps bugging my head and makes me blur. Can you give me some space? Just don't ask that will help.

7) I miss the old you. Seriously! Why do you have to change and become someone I don't even recognize?

8) We used to be so close. Now I barely can hear your name. Why can't you just go somewhere far away? Or perhaps I should go?

9) Why can't you see the truth that lies in front of you? You are too blind to see I guess

Well, never will I say all these things

Happy New Year!!!

2010-01-02T07:41:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everyone!!!

May this year bring us more happiness and joy

And may this year make us become a better person than before

More importantly, try to be positive and let bygones be bygones ^_^

Important to have friends :)

2009-12-22T19:33:00.000-08:00

Always Remember

2009-12-22T18:14:00.000-08:00

Always remember

the life we have right now

is not gonna last forever

Always remember

that our life will come to an end

someday

Always remember

to forgive everyone

even though is hard to do

Always remember

those who have left

so that we will remember

our time will come too

In the meantime

Live life to the fullest

^_^

Sometimes we just don't realise

2009-12-04T20:09:00.000-08:00

Sometimes we just don't realise
that
We hurt those who love us
We hurt those who care
because
We were too busy in our own small world
We were too busy in doing our own things

Sometimes we just have to stop

just for a while
To look back
the things that we have done
the silly little things we have said
To ponder upon
the mistakes we made
the wrong words we said

Adapt and accept the reality

2009-11-28T19:05:00.000-08:00

Once a while, we tend to forget we only got 7 days in a week, or 24 hours in a day.

We easily pass each day, each minute, each second..without even realise.

We change. If not, the environment will change and force us to become someone we dont know.

Life will not waiting for us. All of sudden, we will be somewhere we are not expect to be.

Adapt and accept the reality. Thats the key. The right door is what we have to find.

Be Careful What You Wish For

2009-11-28T02:16:00.000-08:00

Be careful what you wish for
Cause you might just get it
And then regret

A book by Alexandra Potter entitled "Be Careful What You Wish For". I like the title and also the story line. Even when I was reading this novel, a friend of mine also read this novel too. So we like, sharing reading the same novel. She will read this novel when I was asleep and vice versa. Kinda funny when remembering those times. :)

Wonder

2009-11-27T08:31:00.000-08:00

Have you ever read any book that gives you guidelines to become a millionaire?

Trick to become millionaire, Easy way to get rich,millionaire is not a dream bla bla bla

Well, at least im sure you have seen it somewhere, didn’t you huh?

Altogether, it was sold more than hundreds thousands copies in Malaysia.

But, the thing is, how come the number of millionaires not that much? Hmm…wondering..wondering…

p/s : knowledge without practice is like broadband with no connection.Macam Haram.

Sacrifice

2009-11-26T00:57:00.000-08:00

In This Life, we must sacrifice something whether it is big or small, whether it is long or short.

Do it with dignity, do it with full of honesty.

Therefore, i have decided to sacrifice my hair,or in other word..im going to cut my hair soon.

Selamat Hari Raya Korban!!

p/s: i am a guest blogger from http://fndrocka.wordpress.com

How to forget an EX?

2009-09-02T22:03:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I juz wish that I have no feelings

so that I won't

1-be feeling guilty

2-have to choose

3-be hurt

4-have uneasy feelings

But, that will never happen coz I'm a human being. All of those feelings are normal.

And for some of us who have once going through a bad relationship, it will take like forever for them to heal n cure from that pain. Damn true it hurts

Therefore, is there any cure for a broken hearted? Is there any way to forget an EX? I'm no lurve doc but I found this few steps kinda help.

How to forget an EX?

1-Talk to ur friends. Share with them.

2-Cry. Oh yes juz let it go. Cry as many as u want. Becoz it can really make u feel much much better.

3-Write a list "Why he/ she doesn't deserves u". Write at least 10 things n put the list on ur wall. Read it everyday. Tear it up after u really feels u can move on.

4-Throw away everything that reminds u of him/her. If u don't want to throw it away, put everything in a box n put da box somewhere u can hardly see.

5-Get clear with ur ex. If there any unresolved issues, clear them up.

6-Indulge urself. Ha this is the time where u can pamper urself with chocolates, massages, facials n SHOPPING SPREES!! Do whatever that can helps make u feel good about urself but remember not to be over ok i want to climb mountains. anyone??

7-Hang out with ur friends. Enjoy the moments ;)

8-Try something new. Learn a new language for example.

9-Work/study hard. Work/study can be a great distraction, especially if u feel like you're accomplishing something.

10-Date other people or meeting new people.

11-Go back to the places that u used to go with him/her. It will be hard at 1st but later u will feel good about urself coz u can go to those places w/out reminds urself about him/her.

12-Exercise.

It is normal for us to be thinking about him/her sometimes. But try not to think about them a lot. It is juz not worth ur time n juz try to LET GO~~~

Things Girls Wish Guys Knew.....

2009-08-28T08:54:00.000-07:00

Got this from a friend who posted a bulletin at Friendster.

Things Girls Wish Guys Knew.....

1.We like you to be a little jealous. But overly possessive is not necessary.

2.We’re allowed to be late. You’re not.

3.Eye contact is the key.

4.Don’t take longer to get ready than we do.

5.Laugh at our jokes.

6.3 words: honesty, honesty, honesty!

7.Girls can be groupies. Guy groupies are stalkers.

8.Do not start with us. You will not win.

9.Would you like it if a guy treated your sister that way? Didn’t think so.

10.If you ask nicely, we`ll answer the same way.

11.We will never have enough clothes or shoes.

12.Open the door for us no matter where we are.

13.We love surprises.

14.Pay attention to the little things we do, because they mean the most.

15.Always brush your teeth before you see us. A fresh mouth and white teeth are a necessity.

16.Clean your room before we come over.

17.Even though you’re sometimes insensitive and hurt us, we still love you with everything we are.

18.Don’t act hard around your friends

19.Sometimes “NO” really means “NO!”.

20.“Wife beaters” are not an adequate form of fashion.

21.Sensitive guys are great.. but crying more than we do in a movie just isn’t right.

The green-eyed monster

2009-08-26T03:44:00.000-07:00

A green-eyed monster? It is not a monster that has green eye. Aha..that's for sure. For those who doesn't know what the green-eyed monster means look at the picture above u will know the meaning ;)

Shakespeare in The Merchant of Venice, 1600 was the one who 1st used this phrase.

How all the other passions fleet to air,
As doubtful thoughts, and rash-embraced despair,
And shuddering fear, and green-eyed jealousy! O love,
Be moderate; allay thy ecstasy,
In measure rein thy joy; scant this excess.
I feel too much thy blessing: make it less,
For fear I surfeit.

Oh I'm not into literature or Shakespeare ok. So I can't help u guys if u have any questions with literature or Shakespeare.

Everyone has their own green-eyed monster. Well, that's what I think.

It's just that sometimes I just don't understand why some people will do anything bad to others just because the green-eyed monster came out from their rational mind.

Shouldn't they feel happy when their friends have better life? I mean, if you have a friend that is prettier, richer and famous, what will u do? You should feel happy for her rite? Or you can turn that jealousy in you to improve yourself.

If you want to be prettier, you can do some make over rite?

If you want to be richer, you can try to make more money using the right way rite?

If you want to be famous, try to take your friend as an example. Maybe she got some interesting personality that you are lack of. N then maybe you can be famous among your friends too..who knew rite?

So, what's the point of doing bad things to others just because the green-eyed monster has came out from your rational mind?

Why does some people out there who always badmouthed others just because they are actually jealous of that particular person? Can't they try to be more rational?

Therefore let's try to improve ourselves.

Let's turn the jealousy in ourselves into some positive thinking that will make us become a better person.

At least we try...

Determination

2009-08-26T03:37:00.000-07:00

“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.”-Gail Devers-

5 before 5

2009-08-13T10:22:00.000-07:00

Ibn Abbas (r.a) heard the Prophet (s.a.w) advising someone saying, “Take advantage of five before five: Your youth before your old age, your health before your sickness, your wealth before your poverty, your free time before you become occupied, and your life before your death.”

We should take advantage of our youth before our old age came. Remember that our youth came only once in a life time. Therefore we should not involve ourselves with something that can make us regret later in our old age . DO NOT TAKE DRUGS or SMOKE!! IT CAN KILLS

Take advantage of our health before sickness came. We have to remember those who care :)

The wealthy people should always remember those who are poor as the say goes, "what goes around, comes around".

Try to fill our free time with something useful. Waste no time before we become occupied.

"Dream as if you will live forever, live as if you will die today"--James Dean

It's time to let go~~

2009-08-06T20:57:00.001-07:00

Sometimes we don't realize that the baggage that we carry with us really can affect our daily life. The feelings of being betrayed by your own friend, a failed relationship, and the feelings of failure really can make us feel so bad.

What is that we keep inside that make it so hard for us to let go??

Is it because we think that we will never give trust to anyone anymore?

Is it because of the failed relationship that make us feel so hard to be in one in the future?

Is it because we think we juz couldn't bounce back after lots of failures and rejections in our life?

Oh well

To me, we juz have to let it all go...

Even it is so hard to do..we juz have to try..

Try to learn to love ourselves more..

Try to think positive..

Try to be more confident in ourselves..

AND

The most important thing to do is..

Try to LET GO~~~

-words & pictures-

2009-07-28T00:13:00.000-07:00

Crush~

2009-07-25T05:46:00.000-07:00

I don't know how to explain what i feel recently. It was like I was in my highschool days again. The feeling of having a crush to someone. haha

The different between my crush at this moment and the crush I had during school is that I actually try to get to know that person. Try to keep in touch with him. Until now I still wonder where does the courage I have comes from anyway...coz it really sounds so not me..

This crush really put a smile on my face everyday. It really makes my day when that person send sms or call me. Well, do u have any experience like this before? Where u feel like u have known that person for so long??

So now, I'm pretty sure that I'm so over my ex. There..i say it!!!

Will u tell the person u've crush on about ur feelings??

Do u have the courage to take the 1st step??

To me..

There's no lose or win in this situation so, why don't we juz give it a try rite?

P/s: Always smile coz u will never know that ur smile can make someone's day ;)

happy ;)

2009-07-16T02:04:00.000-07:00

if ur happy and u know it clap ur hands!

if ur happy and u know it and u really wanna show it

if ur happy and u know it clap ur hands!

if ur happy and u know it stomp ur feet!

if ur happy and u know it and u really wanna show it

if ur happy and u know it stomp ur feet!

if ur happy and u know it shout horray!

if ur happy and u know it shout hooray!

if ur happy and u know it and u really wanna show it

if ur happy and u know it shout horray!

if ur happy and u know it do all 3!

if ur happy and u know it and u really wanna show it

if ur happy and u know it do all 3!

Sometimes...

2009-06-25T10:40:00.000-07:00

People come n people go. Sometimes people come in our lives n we know that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purposes, teach u a lesson, or to help u figure out who u are or who u want to become. You will never know who these people may be possibly your roommate, neighbour, professor, long lost friend or even a complete stranger. Sometimes things that happen to us that may seem horrible, painful n unfair at first will eventually turn up to be a reflection that we will find that without overcoming those obstacles, we would have never realized the potential, strength, willpower that been hiding inside us all these while.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and stupidity all occur to tests the limits of our souls. Without these small test, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe n comfortable, but dull n utterly pointless. The people we meet who affect our lifes, the succes n downfalls we experience will help to create who we are n who we become. Plus the bad experiences that we had. In fact, they are the most important ones.

Make every day count...

Create your own life n then go out n live it with absolutely no regrets.

Learn a lesson in life each day you live :)

Is it really LOVE?

2009-06-13T01:44:00.000-07:00

How many of us really understand what the 4 letter means?

L.O.V.E

I was going through my inbox n suddenly my eyes catch an old email from my schoolmate. It was years ago entitled "Does she/he really love u?”. I changed the title alright :p

For all you people who say 'I love U' when you have no clue what love is exactly something to ponder upon...

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??

It isn't love, it is like

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??

It isn't love, it is lust

Are you proud, and eager to show them off??

It isn't love, it is luck

Do you want them because you know they're there??

It isn't love, it is loneliness

Are you there because it's what everyone wants??

It isn't love, it is loyalty

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt them??

It isn't love, it is pity

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??

It isn't love, it is infatuation

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??

It isn't love, it is friendship

Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of??

It isn't love, it is a lie

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??

It isn't love, it is charity

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Does your heart ache and break when they're sad??

Then it's love

Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong??

Then it's love

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts??

Then it's love

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there??

Then it's love

Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are??

Then it's love

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death??

Then it's love

Some of us get confuses of our feelings. There is no reason to like or love someone. So, juz say it to those u loves coz u might not get another chance. Put the ego aside n say it out.

Besides LOVE to a human creature...there are other types of LOVE

LOVE to our GOD, Allah the Almighty

LOVE to our Prophet Muhammad SAW

LOVE to our country

We should also...

LOVE our parents

LOVE our sisters...brothers...in ISLAM

LOVE our friends...

Therefore, if u think u are alone because u don’t have any partner yet...u are wrong...there are so many LOVES out there. Like the Elton John song. LOVE IS IN THE AIR

Be happy for what u are coz everyone is unique in different ways. ;)

Let Bygones be Bygones...

2009-06-12T09:15:00.000-07:00

People always say "just forgive n forget". But didn't they know that it is much easier to forgive than forget? (Unless u has some memory loss ha-ha)

We should let bygones be bygones...

Try to forgive those who make mistakes to us...

(Even our Prophet forgave his Ummah)

Learn from the mistakes we made…

So that

The mistakes won’t be repeated again...

BUT

We should never forget

Because if we do, then we'll never learned the lesson

And that will contribute to repeat the same mistakes

again

AND again

AND again...

Best Friends

2009-06-10T06:28:00.001-07:00

This is the 6th novel I read during this semester break. Guess I really spend my semester break this time by reading novels (see, I've got nothing else better to do). So, here is the book summary by HarperCollins.co.uk

From the bestselling author of PS, I Love You comes an enchanting novel about two childhood friends whom fate and destiny can't help toying with.

From naughty children to rebellious teenagers, Rosie and Alex have stuck by each other through thick and thin. But just as they're discovering the joys of teenage nights on the town and dating disasters, they're separated. Alex's family moves from Dublin to America – and Alex goes with them. For good.

Rosie's lost without her best friend. But on the eve of her departure to join Alex in Boston, Rosie gets news that will change her life forever – and keep her at home in Ireland.

Their magical connection sees them through the ups and downs of each other's lives but neither of them knows whether their friendship can really survive the years and miles – as well as new relationships. And at the back of Rosie's mind is whether they were meant to be more than just good friends all along. Misunderstandings, circumstances and sheer bad luck have kept them out of each others' arms, but when presented with the ultimate opportunity, will they gamble everything – including their friendship – for true love?

Destiny, Alex and Rosie discover, is a funny thing and fate isn't quite done with them yet…

I'm not good in doing review so I won't do any in this blog. Juz wanna say that I really love the story in this book n I would recommend for u guys to read this book.

When I was small, I used to think that everyone can only have 1 best friend. As I'm getting older, I realized that I was wrong. We can have more than 1 best friend. But, people always say that there can never be "only friends" between a male and a female. Is that right? What do u guys think?

To me, there is nothing wrong to have a male best friend. It is juz that sometimes we juz have to realize that our best friends have their lives too. Therefore, all we can do is to be supportive n be there whenever they needed us. Even if they never think the same way as we do ;)

Why she won't wear Hijab!

2009-06-10T05:43:00.000-07:00

I was tagged by a friend in facebook. And he wanted those who being tagged to spread this note around. So there you go..

Why She Won't Wear Hijab!

A Discussion by A.Q. Alidost

A conversation for Muslim sisters:

"I'm so tired."

"Tired of what?"

"Of all these people judging me."

"Who judged you?"

"Like that woman, every time I sit with her, she tells me to wear hijab."

"Oh, hijab and music! The mother of all topics!"

"Yeah! I listen to music without hijab…haha!"

"Maybe she was just giving you advice."

"I don't need her advice. I know my religion. Can`t she mind her own business?"

"Maybe you misunderstood. She was just being nice."

"Keeping out of my business, that would be nice..."

"But it's her duty to encourage you do to good."

"Trust me. That was no encouragement. And what do you mean `good` ?"

"Well, wearing hijab, that would be a good thing to do."

"Says who?"

"It's in the Qur'an, isn't it?"

"Yes. She did quote me something."

"She said Surah Nur, and other places of the Qur'an."

"Yes, but it's not a big sin anyway. Helping people and praying is more important."

"True. But big things start with small things."

"That's a good point, but what you wear is not important. What's important is to have a good healthy heart."

"What you wear is not important?"

"That's what I said."

"Then why do you spend an hour every morning fixing up?"

"What do you mean?"

"You spend money on cosmetics, not to mention all the time you spend on fixing your hair and low-carb dieting."

"So?"

"So, your appearance IS important."

"No. I said wearing hijab is not an important thing in religion."

"If it's not an important thing in religion, why is it mentioned in the Holy Qur'an?"

"You know I can't follow all that's in Qur'an."

"You mean God tells you something to do, you disobey and then it's OK?"

"Yes. God is forgiving."

"God is forgiving to those who repent and do not repeat their mistakes."

"Says who?"

"Says the same book that tells you to cover."

"But I don't like hijab, it limits my freedom."

"But the lotions, lipsticks, mascara and other cosmetics set you free?!

What`s your definition of freedom anyway?"

"Freedom is in doing whatever you like to do."

"No. Freedom is in doing the right thing, not in doing whatever we wish to do."

"Look! I've seen so many people who don't wear hijab and are nice people, and so many who wearhijab and are bad people."

"So what? There are people who are nice to you but are alcoholic. Should we all be alcoholics? You made a stupid point."

"I don't want to be an extremist or a fanatic. I'm OK the way I am without hijab."

"Then you are a secular fanatic. An extremist in disobeying God."

"You don't get it, if I wear hijab, who would marry me?!"

"So all these people with hijab never get married?!"

"Okay! What if I get married and my husband doesn't like it? And wants me to remove it?"

"What if your husband wants you to go out with him on a bank robbery?!"

"That's irrelevant, bank robbery is a crime."

"Disobeying your Creator is not a crime?"

"But then who would hire me?"

"A company that respects people for who they are."

"Not after 9-11"

"Yes. After 9-11. Don't you know about Hanan who just got into med school?

And the other one, what was her name, the girl who always wore

a white hijab…ummm…"

"Yasmeen?"

"Yes. Yasmeen. She just finished her MBA and is now interning for GE."

"Why do you reduce religion to a piece of cloth anyway?"

"Why do you reduce womanhood to high heals and lipstick colors?"

"You didn't answer my question."

"In fact, I did. Hijab is not just a piece of cloth. It is obeying God in a difficult environment. It is courage, faith in action, and true womanhood.

But your short sleeves, tight pants…"

"That's called `fashion`, you live in a cave or something? First of all, hijab was founded by men who wanted to control

women."

"Really? I did not know men could control women by hijab."

"Yes. That's what it is."

"What about the women who fight their husbands to wear hijab? And women in France who are forced to remove their hijab by men? What do you say about that?"

"Well, that's different."

"What difference? The woman who asked you to wear hijab…she was a woman, right?"

"Right, but…"

"But fashions that are designed and promoted by male-dominated corporations, set

you free? Men have no control on exposing women and using them as a commodity?! Give me a break!"

"Wait, let me finish, I was saying…"

"Saying what? You think that men control women by hijab?"

"Yes."

"Specifically how?"

"By telling women how and what to wear, dummy!"

"Doesn't TV, magazines and movies tell you what to wear, and how to be `attractive'?"

"Of course, it's fashion."

"Isn't that control? Pressuring you to wear what they want you to wear?"

[Silence]

"Not just controlling you, but also controlling the market."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, you are told to look skinny and anorexic like that woman on the cover

of the magazine, by men who design those magazines and sell those products."

"I don't get it. What does hijab have to do with products."

"It has everything to do with that. Don't you see? Hijab is a threat to consumerism,

women who spend billions of dollars to look skinny and live by standards of fashion designed by men…and then here is Islam, saying trash all that nonsense and focus on your soul, not on

your looks, and do not worry what men think of your looks."

"Like I don't have to buy hijab? Isn't hijab a product?"

"Yes, it is. It is a product that sets you free from male-dominated consumerism."

"Stop lecturing me! I WILL NOT WEAR HIJAB!

It is awkward, outdated, and totally not suitable for this society ... Moreover, I am only 20 and too young to wear hijab!"

"Fine. Say that to your Lord, when you face Him on Judgment Day."

"Fine."

[Silence]

"Shut up and I don't want to

hear more about hijab niqab schmijab Punjab!"

[Silence]

She stared at the mirror,

tired of arguing with herself all this time.

Successful enough, she managed to shut the voices in her head, with her own opinions triumphant

in victory on the matter, and a final modern decision accepted by the society - but rejected by the Faith:

"Yes!" - to curls on the hair - "No!" - to hijab!

"And he(/she) is indeed a failure who corrupts it [the soul]!"

[Holy Quran 91:10]

Subhana'Allah!!!

"Nay! You

prefer the life of this world; While the hereafter is better and

more lasting."

[Holy Quran:

87:16-17]

"You are the best community (Ummah) raised up for (the benefit of) humanity; enjoining what is right and forbidding what is wrong and believing in Allah."

[Holy Quran: 3:110]

Wedding!!

2009-06-07T01:08:00.000-07:00

There are lots of wedding invitations during this school holidays. I already went to 3 of them. Juz went 1 today actually. When u talk about wedding..people will always wonder how does the bride looks like n how does the bridegroom looks like too rite? I always wait for them to arrive then will I left the wedding. haha guess I'm one of them :p

If the couple are both good looking..u will say "oh, they really suits each other" or "what a beautiful couple they are". What if they are not both good looking and only one of them is good looking? What will u guys think or say?

Some of us say that looks are the most important criteria they will look for in their future partners. But actually, think again. When u are getting older, u won't have the same smooth beautiful skin..u won't be in perfect shape as u were in the past..UNLESS u take BOTOX and always exercise to keep fit. So, why does the look become the most important criteria? I always wonder n still wondering..

Something dat makes u think twice ;)

2009-06-06T21:33:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone!

I'm currently on my semester break at the moment. Feel bored to death juz donno what to do. So a friend of mine suggested that I write a blog. Here I am then.. :)

OK here goes..something dat makes u think twice.. I got this somewhere in the Internet..can't recalled where n when..juz wanna share with u guys..

Something that makes you think…..twice.

Painful things

01. flashing your smile to someone you don’t want to see

02. bringing back the feeling you’ve learned to forget

03. showing that you care

04. finding a way to mend a broken heart

05. learning that you’ve been used by someone you truly love

06. saying "i love you" when you mean it and when you don’t

07. letting go of a person you’ve just learned to love

08. realizing that you love somebody you’ve just taken for granted

09. realizing that you love the person you’ve just broken up with

10. waiting for promises you know she or he’ll ever keep

11. saving your love for someone who loves somebody else

12. reminiscing the good times u shared together

13. shielding your heart to love somebody

14. trying to hide what you really feel

15. having a commitment with someone that you know would not last

16. trying to hide the tears that voluntarily fall from your eyes

17. sharing the one you love with someone else

18. loving a person too much

19. giving up someone you never thought of giving up

20. falling in love for the first time

21. loving someone you haven’t seen

22. having the right love at the wrong time

23. exerting effort to make the relationship last or work

24. not being appreciated when you know you’ve given your best

25. taking the risk to fall in love again

26. hiding your relationship from someone else

27. controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend

28. choosing between two persons whom you really love

29. finding out that you can never have the person you just let go of

30. seeing the person you love with someone else

31. learning that the person who claimed to have loved you so much never really cared

32. seeing the one you love fall for someone else

33. falling for your best friend and knowing that things can never be the same again

34. learning to trust after you have been betrayed

35. accepting that it was not meant to be

36. smiling when all you want to do is cry

37. falling and knowing that it can never be

38. not being able to love the person who truly cares for you

39. saying that you can never love a person the way he loves you

40. hearing that he can never love you the way that you love him

41. saying that you are over someone you still love

42. being friends again and learning to let go of each other coz you both know it is better that way

43. convincing oneself that you are not in love when you know that you are

44. having to let go because you know that he deserves someone else

45. trying not to remember how perfect everything used to be

Well, to me there should be give and take in every relationship. They say "love is blind" but in reality LOVE IS NOT BLIND. It simply enables one to see things other fail to see!!